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hi everyone. my name
is Tendayi 29 yrs, and l am HIV+. Life is so amazing, and God has a plan
for you. l had been sleeping with men ever since l was fifteen. l was
true to the frist guy l dated, but you know how that goes. l moved overseas
to attend school, and l told myself l was leaving the past behind me,
and l had a new life to start. before l felt zim the guy l was dating,
his ex wife had passed away, and then a girlfriend died too, in the back
of my mind l knew it had to be AIDS, but l didn't wanna get tested. Seven
yrs later my nightmare came to huant me. l found out l was pregant, and
l went to take the test, and it came pos. l was so alone, the guy l was
seeing left when he found out l was having a baby. all alone in the world,
l cried, l had no one to talk to, but killing myself never crossed my
mind. l went to see a doc, the best doc in the world(in my opinion) she
told me that of all her patients with hiv and are pregant, only 1 out
150 in the past five yrs, had a baby that was pos. She put me on meds,
the meds didn't make me sick or anything.(l learned i was pos when l was
6 months) my greatest fear was passing it own to this child. l remember
the day l got my results that l had hiv, l went home, and prayed to GOD
to have his will and whatever he had instore for me,l would take it,but
save this child. so a week b4 my due date l went to see my doc, and she
told me some great news, my viral load was undectable,and my cell were
550. She told me l could have the baby with natural delivery, but l chose
the c-section because of the lesser risks of blood passing to the child.
My baby came in this world, and l remember giving him AZT every six hrs,
not knowing he had it or not.(they could only test him after six weeks)
he results come and he was neg. l thank God, and will keep thaking him
for the rest of my live. now l live for my son because he is that man
and love l wanted in my life. I STILL WANNA LIVE untill he is old with
his own kids, and for that l thank GOd eveyday. and this is my story .
Sent via Email August
11, 2005 from Zimbabwe.
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