To scared in Canada. I know exactly what you are going through. Your story is so similar to mine that it is almost terrifying.

My story is this. In December of 2002 I was with an old friend. I had been friends with her since high school, and we even dated a year prior to that but by this time we had lost contact for about 5 months and we were just now getting back together. Anyway, a couple of days before Christmas she invited to her house because her mom was out of town and she was on her way out as well. She lived down the street so it didn't take me long to get there. To make a long story short we had sex. We had sex prior to this but it was different this time, I felt uncomfortable. The condom broke. About 3 weeks later I too discovered a foreign type discharge. I went to the clinic A.S.A.P. The doctor told me what I had was NGU ( Nogonocal Urethritis). Men don't contract chlamydia or gonnorea, this is what they contract from women that have either of the two. It cleared up within a day or so and for while I was fine. Then one day we were talking on the phone and she mentioned that she had sex with her bestfriend, a bisexual male, prior to having sex with me. Since then I haven't been able to think about anything else. I'm too scared to know the truth. I wouldn't be able to handle it if I was. Fuck treatment, I can't live a life confined like that but I can't stand the thought of dying at 20 or so. I've tried to find strength but I can't do it. I have a girlfriend now and i've told her about everything but we had already had sex by then, so not only am I scared for my life but i'm terrified for her as well. Even if I deserve this she doesn't. I'd rather die than know that i'm responsible for her unhappiness.
Scared as well in The A- Town

Sent via Email Mar 19, 2004 from Atlanta USA.