I am an HIV negative Pacific Islander, but have recently met a Scottish boy who is HIV positive. At the very outset of our relationship, he made no secret of his status. And although he and I have yet to sleep together, I am so scared of what might happen down the road. I have fallen for this guy. The minute I met him, all the sounds and the whole dining room of the restaurant where we met, just fell away. That's never happened to me before, and just thinking about him makes me ache so bad for him. He doesn't look ill at all. But at the back of my mind I keep thinking that he's like a broken, yet very cheerful and upbeat toy soldier, and this quality of his has endeared him to me all the more.
Is there anyone out there who's negative, and has an HIV+ partner? I would love to know how you cope with something like this...I may be reached at for comment or advice.
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Hi there I'm a worried 28 year old white South African male and think I've been exposed
I'm pretty sure that I've been exposed to HIV. Due to all the symtoms I've had and still have. Still got a sore throat after 5 weeks.
I've had a full std test done with everything negative except that I'm still waiting for the HIV test to come back. I'm planning for the worst!
I'm really touched at some of these stories I've read here and was wondering if there are any support groups here in ZA in the Gauteng area.
At the end we are all still human.
We still need companionship and relationships and every thing else that goes with it. I think that seeing/being with people in the same boat as you is important but how do you go about this? Are the any sites out here that do this?
Just curious.

I'm scared, i'm terrified................I need that test! :*(
I am 25, became sexually active at 16, and was very promiscuous. I was heavy into drinking and partying up until 19. I still partied a bit after, but my sex life has not been the same, i'm a "good girl" now, but afraid I may have made a deadly mistake in my past.
At age 17 I was at a party, I met a funny, full of life gay man, we'll call him Terry. We got to talking, and came to find out that we shared a past sexual partner in common! (OMG)
We'll call this guy Martin.
Age 18, at a party, along comes Terry. A long while since seeing im last, my friend was different. No longer full of life, he wasn't the Terry I knew before. When I ask what's new, he repleis with, "Haven't you heard? I'm HIV+".
-Time stood still-
Not only was this news devastating, for the fact that my friend has told me that he has a terminal illness, but the fact that we have shared a sex partner became a very large issue as well.
Am I going to die? Is this it?
I have lived with these thoughts for years now.
The test - One simple test holds the key..
Which door will it open?
Door one: Painful death, AIDS
or
Door two: Negative! Freedom from all this worry, a new lease one life
I realize this test could set me free, but what if it doesn't?
What if I get much dreaded results, a death sentence?
How will I go on?
How will I tell my mom?
How will I tell my fiance, my love of 5+ years?
How can I face my days, knowing I will never achieve my dreams?
I am scared, absolutely terrified.

PART 2. Like I was saying DON'T WAIT GET TESTED if it comes out positive or negative the worring will kill you before HIV will and just remember which I just found out that HIV can't kill you it just breaks down your immune systum,and you can get sick from anything else, you can live with HIV and have a normal life.As my lord and savor Thank you again!And may God be with you at your time of needs.

I am 33. When I was younger I screwed around and regret it deeply. I do not know if I have HIV and do not want to know. Actually if the truth were to be told I would want to know if the test were negative but I do not want to know if it is possitive. I take care of AIDS patients as part of my job and I do not wish that on anyone. I do not know if I have the virus and I do not want to knoiw so I do not have and have not had a relationship for over five years because if I do have somthing I would not want to give it to anyone else.