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Fri
Feb 6, 2004
location : Texas
Well i am sitting here on a thursday night scared to death. About a week
ago i had unprotected sex with a guy i had met only twice. I told him no
since we didnt have a condom and i was scared of HIV but he kept pressuring
me, finally i gave up b/c no wasnt working. I was scared in my mind b/c
after my last HIV test i promised God i wouldnt have sex unprotected anymore.
Well it seems like i messed up agian. I havent been able to sleep b/c i
am so worried. I know that the window period id 3 months long, i dont know
how i can wait that long. I should be a happy go lucky college student but
instead i cant concentrate on anything but if i am infected with HIV. My
advice to any body out there is please practice safe sex, and never let
anyone pressure you to do anything you dont want to. I dont know how i am
going to make it through these next 12 weeks, i feel as though i might go
insane. I just keep praying to God that it will be negative. I dont know
how i would tell my parents who think i am there little angel daughter who
does no wrong, i would never want to dissapoint. So now I am living in my
own lonely prison for the next 3 months due to the fact that i was stupid.
PLEASE PROTECT YOURSELF!
I never want anyone to have to go through what i am going through right
now.
Sun
Feb 8, 2004
location : Sydney,Australia
Hi,
I am just trying to track down any members of the Treatment Action Campaign
(TAC) or the Global Treatment Action Campaign (GTAC) or any other African
AIDS-based group in Australia, preferrably in Sydney. I have just returned
from Africa and am keen to establish communication with them. If anbody
knows of anyone, their contact details would be most appreciated - you
can email them to me
Cheers,
Amy
Wed
Feb 18, 2004
location : Nevada, USA.
Hi everyone,
I am not sure if I AIDS but I have been very ill lately. A mouth ago my
ex wanted to have sex with me. I was trying to get info about her but
she told me she has only have had sex with 2 people. I had trusted her
so I went and had sex with her and when I was having sex with her the
condom broke and I did not know about it. So a week ago my ex cheated
on me with my best friend and after we broke up she told me that she has
had sex with over 10 guys and that she had AIDS. Now I am worried that
I might have AIDS and I want to go get tested but I dont want my
mom to come and if I do have aids she would be stressing all the time.
If I want to go to the doctors I have to have some one 18 or older and
I dont know what to do and I am afraid that I might have aids and
I don't know what to do well I have to go late.
Dustin
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Thu
Feb 19 2004
location : Australia
I am a 22 year old
gay male who engaged in unprotected sex with 2 guys about 2 months ago
and i have been living a daily living hell ever since.Having this constant
worry and anxiety about possibly being infected with HIV is almost unbearable.The
situation invovled drugs and straight away afterwards i starting slipping
into depression and being anxiety ridden.
I have become quite paranoid about symptoms and so forth that im checking
myself constantly for the slightlest thing that seems abnormal or a HIV
symptom.
I found a gland sticking out in the back of my neck and immediatley panicked
and went to the doctor straight away.The doctor said the gland was normal
and for me not worry about it.I have since found another gland sticking
out in my groin and this starting the panick again.I went straight back
to the doctor and he checked telling me not to worry and that the gland
is totally normal.Im still extremely concerned with these glands though.
Im still in the 13 week window period and it has been the worst 2.5 months
of my life.A living nightmare and having no one to talk to about it makes
it so much worse.
Having read others experiences as well gives me a little bit of a relief
that im not the only one going through this nightmare.
Having found this site has been a blessing that i can read others experiences
and know that there are others in the world who are in the same situation
as myself.
Thank you to everyone for sharing there experiences it had a very positive
effect on my current state of mind.
God bless you all!
Sun
Feb 22, 2004
location : Florida, USA.
Hi, I'm a 14 year
old female and turning 15 on July 18th 2004. I 'm scared, real scared
because I had unprotected sex with my partner, that isn't the worst part
because he doesn't have HIV or AIDS and neither do I, but I had my period
when we had unprotected sex and he ejaculated insideof me.That's my concern
I'm so worried..........I can't get tested because my mother doesn't let
me go out with friends or anything and I can't tell her to go with me
because then she'll find out that I'm not a virgin anymore, the only way
to get tested is by skipping school but I don't want to do something stupid
like that so if anyone can help me, I'm begging for someone to PLEASE
PLEASE PLEASE let me know if you can get HIV or create HIV by doing what
me & my partner did, please!!!!HELP ME!!! Or let me kno what I can
do. Oh my god please...I didn't think about it when he told me if he could
ejaculate inside me..............PLEASE
Tue
Feb 24, 2004
location : South Africa
I am an HIV+ women,
I was tested positive 4 years ago and I'm living a very normal life and
I'm very happily married to a HIV- man. we've been married for two years
and life has never been so exciting. The problem is I wanna have a baby
and I just need some advice on how to go about, being positive and my
husband negetive. we are having safe intercourse, and I was wondering
about artificial insemination, and the 99% chance that if I do get pregnant
my baby will be negetive , I've heard of the nevirpine drug taken by pregnant
women before they go into labour. Can anyone help me with advice.
Wed
Feb 25, 2004
location : concord nc
hi everyone, i will
call myself rece
i just want to say that i am negative but my fiance is positive he got
it from his baby mother, she got it when she was about 17 while she was
infected she went around having sex with different guys to see how many
she could infect. she had a daughter who wasnt infected then she met my
fiance and she became pregnant after telling him she couldnt get pregnant
he was only 17 also when they met well she was 23 and he was 17 but anyway
she infected him. he left her because she was cheating on him and we got
together only to find out 2 years later she was sick, she was telling
everyone that she had cancer but in reality she had aids and didnt care
who she hurt. well she died dec. 2002. and they told us to get checked
we did and he was devastated with the out come, now he is laid off from
a large textile company and drawing unemployment he gets sick alot and
has no insurance what can he do to get medical help? he signed up for
medicade and it has been 6 months and he still hasnt gotten a responds
please help me to help him he wont ask for help but if it helps him i
will ask everyone i meet as long as he lives so i can share my happiness
with him and our kids. my story could go on for days but this will be
all for now.for all of you who knows the word of prayer please pray that
we grow stronger in the lord thanks for listening i think i need someone
to talk to thanks again
Thu
Feb 26, 2004
location : San Antonio
hi
I know that most of you that send and tell your stories about your personal
life its not easy i just want to let all of you know that you are very
strong just by sharing your story and let evryone know that its hard to
be in your situations but always remember that GOD is there with youll
and be strong and one more thing send more stories so other people would
know and take these serious If i would have the money i personally would
help you GOD bless all of you.
liz
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Thu
Feb 26, 2004
location : Germany
Hello,
I'm a 34 gay male living in France. I was infected in February 2002. 2
years ago, after practicing oral sex. I was not aware that this was so
risky. The risk is perhaps minor, but it's there - I'm the proof of it.
I was diagnosed in september 2003 and it was an enormous schock. I decided
to continue my life and to be happy. Every crisis is a chance. I don't
believe this is the end of the road- nobody is immortal. To all people
living with this disease: keep strong, keep optimistic, enjoy life. There
is much hope for all of us and better treatments are around the corner.
Love to all
Nico
TWed
March 3, 2004
location : Adelaide, Australia
I am a 28yo guy who
has had hiv for 9 years. My partner died 5 years ago. I am very
isolated and depressed alot of the time and constantly thinking about
suicide.
I don't have anyone at all to talk to(Not that I want to talk about gloom
and doom all
the time) If anyone could offer support and an understanding ear it would
be greatly
appreciated.
Brian
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Sat
March 6, 2004
location : Memphis, USA.
I was 21 yrs old.
I have been dating this guy for 8yrs. I got pregnat . I was diagnose with
HIV. I have been doing great. This is not my battle its the Lord. I am
now 24yrs old. The devil is defeated. I say to you , do not give up ,
tell the devil he is a liar. Prayer is the answer. I was mad, upset. I
could not cry because I had so much hatterd and anger in me. I have accepted
me the way I am. God did not bring me this for to leave me. The road is
not easy but, I know he cares. My son is fine . I would give my life so,
he want have to go through what I went through. God has not forgotten.
I am a living , walking testament .
Keke
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Sun
Mach 7, 2004
location : Ohio, USA.
I am a 28 year old
single mother of 2. I recently took an HIV test and I am scared to death
of the results. See the truth is Im almost certain my results are going
to be that I am positive. Ive made alot of bad choices in my life. I started
having sex at a young age. To me, having sex made me feel important or
loved, at the moment I was having sex, I felt like I meant something to
someone even if I was just being used for sex. If my results come back
as I feel they would, I dont know what Im going to do. I always said if
I ever get AIDS I'll just kill myself, or do something even worse. I am
so scared I dont know what to do. Ive had sex with over 40 different men
and I NEVER enjoyed it. Not even once. And now to be sitting here possibly
HIV positive, man.....it sure wasn't worth it I hate myself so much. And
Im so lonely and so alone. I dont think I can handle this by myself. I
have no family and no friends. Its just me and my 2 kids. If I die, whats
gonna happen to them. This is absolutely killing me. to whoever might
be reading this, PLEASE be careful, protect yourself or better yet DONT
HAVE SEX. It aint worth it!!!!!! Im sorta glad I did get tested though,
at least now I'll know for sure and If I dont decide to kill myself, then
I can start some sort of treatment. Im so confused Im so lonely and Im
so very depressed. PLEASE GOD....HELP ME!!!!!!! PLEASE PROTECT YOURSELF.
Tue
March 9, 2004
location : Woodend
Hi there,
Talk needs to be about finding the very simplest and yet effective chemical
agents in preference to expensive chemontherapies and life threatening
traumas that dominate experience of HIV and AIDS sufferers and their families
and loved ones. One of the obvious bottom lines is the economic strategies
of companies and countries. Their battleground favours the mighty dollar
and the relief of the irretrievable darkness in pain via wastage, personly,
socially and economicly.
What then of a preventative and curate measure used by the people of Laos?
Did I hear it right, that the women practice use of a small bit of lime
or of a lemon to safeguard themselves, their partners and children, even
helping as a birth-control measure?!!!
Great in simplicity.
A ray of light.
Who was the author of the research into the practice in Laos?
Best wishes,
Chris
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about Lemons and AIDS can be found here www.aids.net.au/lemons-intro.htm
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Thu
March 11, 2004
location : woodend
Dear All,
I wish to thank everyone here on the site for their courage and strength
to be able to share all of your amazing life stories with other people.
Continue to believe in the Power of Prayer and I know for sure that God
is hearing you right now.
PS: Take care and May God Always Be With You. Selah.
Kind Regards,
Sat
March 20, 2004
location : Qld Australia
Hi,
I am doing study in the area of palliative care and am especially interested
in people with AIDS.
My latest study is to do with a scenario where the partner of a person
with aids is smothering him. The PWA does not believe he is going to die
and feels that he has no identity anymore. He wants the carer who is showering
him to speak with his partner.
I am interested to know how others reading this would approach this situation.
I would really ove feedback in this area.
Palliative care is an area I am intersted in pursuing and HIV=AIDs patients
are my chosen direction. If you can help me here please reply. Love to
hear from you.
Julie
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